Falling

falling graciously to sleep
you never even notice
when I leave

falling into this familiar pattern
I forget that you'd do anything for me

how can you listen when I
don't say a word
going over and over
all that you've never heard

falling purposely too deep
I cling to the idea of being weak
crying, begging
for someone to be my strength 

trying endlessly to speak
I'll never give the answer that you seek

why do I fall when you
need me to stand
why do I defy you in
any way I can

why do I stall
it's silent again
how can you rely on one
so unwilling to bend

push me, tug on me
but I cannot watch you wait
for me to break

falling gratefully to sleep
the wall between us now has gotten steep
in climbing this familiar obstacle
falling, I regret, has seemed much easier to me
oh how I regret that it's much easier to leave

Lyrics and Music by Claire Raby