posted by rosebleed @ 12:43 AM
I thought I kicked ass at eastenders tonight.
no, really.
it's not often you find me saying something positive, but despite not being terribly warmed up (I must've been a little, I sang a bit before I left), I think I sounded really good tonight. I even managed to pull off thimbelina on an acoustic. I made a few guitar mistakes here and there, but still.
but I played third (after michelle monté and this guy kyle who plays there regularly, michelle sang a song with him, was cool)... and not many people were there, it was very hard to keep people's attention. one girl did say I did well though (another girl waved to me when I got there, I thought that was cool, as anti-social as I am).
I only played early cuz I sort of just wanted to get it over with. I've had a pretty shit day to be honest. and I keep forgetting to mention my website (something I actually did at the library, as if anyone would remember what I said). I've played there three times now and haven't mentioned it once.
on the way there I walked too close to a doorway that someone was walking out of, I apologized for getting in the way and kept walking. I swear the guy called me a "hood ho", if he wasn't talking to me, I don't know who he could've been talking to. but the air smelled all summery and salt-watery (in a good way), and I thought of a cool line:
this is how I want to feel life
but this isn't how I want my life to feel
I may reword it a bit and maybe use it in something.
so yeah, the library show was pretty awesome, jim said I was "very charismatic", I guess seeing all these comedians has gone to my head, cuz that's totally what I felt like (I also felt like a complete moron). rachael wasn't there but we didn't get to practice anyway (I really suck). I murdered burn away, but I really only played it as a warm up song. I have a very short digital video of me playing falling, but I don't know if the camera mic is crappy or if I sounded pretty bad... but playing it I thought I sounded pretty good, so who knows. I still need a title for my damn song.
so I'm going to see eva tomorrow, that should be cool. one of these days I'm gonna ask becky if I could sing backups for one of their songs, but knowing me I'd forget the words.
